Poem for Finley.......

I have just read this poem and want to share it!

Don't let them say i wasn't born,

that something stopped my heart

i felt each tender squeeze you gave,

I've loved you from the start.

Although my body you cant hold

it doesn't mean I'm gone

this world was worthy, not of me

god chose that i move on.

I know the pain that drowns your soul,

what you are forced to face

you have my word I'll fill your arms,

someday we will embrace.

You'll hear that it was meant to be,

god doesn't make mistakes

But that wont soften your worst blow

or make your heart not ache.

I'm watching over all you do,

another child you'll bear

Believe me when i say to you,

that i am always there.

There will come a time, i promise you,

when you will hold my hand,

stroke my face and kiss my lips

and then you'll understand.

Although I've never breathed your air,

or gazed into your eyes

That doesn't mean i never was

An angel never dies.

Goodbye 2009.......hello 2010!

Well it's New Years Eve. I guess the amount of alcohol consumed tonight is going to be vast!!!!

So...my plans tonight are, meal at home with the family, lots of good food and of course alcohol.

My god, i cannot wait for 2009 to be over it has been the worst year of my life so far...2010 is definately MY year!

Benn trying to think of a New Years resaloution first one springs to mind: Loose weight & Get fit!

All this baby weight from being pregnant needs to GO!

It's amazing how stronger i am after loosing Finley, some days i still feel low, and i think about him every single day, but i have accepted that he's not here, and is in a better place!

R.I.P My boy......love you always!

So....the holiday countdown is ON!

11 Days to go..........

Well i hope everyone has a Fabulous New Years Eve!

And i'll see you all in 2010!!! Yeyyyy!!!

First time for everything..........

Well this is my first time as a ''blogger''

Its now a day before the biggest social event all year, tommorrow will be New Years Eve!

Well.....what a few weeks it has been........recently experienced the biggest heartache in the world.

My son Finley Crane-Greaves was born sleeping on the 28/11/09.

I'm having good days and bad days at the moment, its still very very raw! But have lots of support from family and friends and especially my amazing man Scott.

2010 is a new year and a new start and what better thing to do than start an online blog...........

So, like i said NYE is tommorrow, not doing much just having a meal at home with the fam and the boy!

Then comes the good stuff, January is definatly my month........holiday, new house and im hoping the first night out with my girls in nearly 12 months! Ouch! That's gonna be messy!

Roll on 10/01/10 - First holiday with my boy, Egypt here we come. Lots of relaxation, lots of sun and lots of quality time for me and Scott. (We definatly need it)

Then......28/01/10 - Moving into our gorgeous new house, i really do love it! Although their is one glitch, its in spitting distance from the in-laws!!! Window blinds are being ordered asap!! ha!!

So as you can see i have a few good things to look forward to.

I'll keep you posted as i have lots if not too much time on my hands (still on Mat leave from work)